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When i went to my class last night, I was already planning to push myself a little bit.  I wanted to try and experiment with eye contact.  I didn’t really know how, or when i’d go about it, or even who with, but i just knew i wanted to challenge it.

• Taking the bull by the horns and holding on tight!

As mentioned in my last post, i had a reasonably prolonged conversation with the girl sat at the desk behind me.  This girl, probably in her mid-20s, is quite friendly, uses a lot of eye contact and is generally quite expressive.  Read More »

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I was reminded last night, of a pattern that i’ve followed since as far back as I can remember.

I think in life, for me at least, it’s easy to just do things, be certain ways and follow certain patterns without even noticing.  Sometimes you may make a mental note, but never really pay attention to it again or forget it all together.

• Fear the group

I know i’ve never been good in group situations.  Put me in a room with more than 5 or 6 people I don’t know, and you’re pretty much guarenteed an anti-social oik who will probably choose to listen to music in his headphones, rather than make conversation or get to know people.  Read More »

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In my night class last night, I had socializing thrust upon me.   “For fun,” apparently.

We were split into groups, and had to discuss “Persuasive topics.”  It worked out as quite a good thing, as it pretty much confirmed that my inability to socialize is more about a lack of practise and effort, than it is about shyness or lack of confidence.

I probably ended up being one of the main speakers of our group, or at least thereabouts.  But, i did notice something and it made me think, and you know the rules by now, if something makes me think, it’ll likely end up here in a nice, long ramble.  Read More »

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I attended my first nightclass on Wednesday night.  English GCSE.

The class wasn’t bad at all, teacher seems fine, explained the work we’ll be doing and the coursework expected, all sounds within my grasp.

I did notice how socially inept i am at the moment though, because i’ve kind of locked myself away from society, in my own little world for so long.  Read More »