Don’t Damn Me!

...Silence isn’t golden, when i’m holding it inside

 

Tears of the clown

Written by Paulie on November 12th, 2008

Over the past few weeks, I’ve been going through a bit of a — Actually i’m not sure what it is.  I’ve not been depressed, or even sad, just spending too much time thinking about things and prone to see the negative.

So to combat this, I’ve been watching a lot of comedy.  Chicken soup for the soul.

My comedic tastes are quite brutal.  I do like a lot of innocent comedians and their acts: like Ken Dodd, Ronnie Corbett, etc, but i’m really at home with the most disgusting and brutal comedians.  Read More »

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New Mobile Phone

Written by Paulie on November 5th, 2008

I’ve been with Orange now for 9 years, and every year or so I like to upgrade my phone.  I do it, usually, just for the sake of it, rather than any real need to upgrade, but this year i had my eye on a particular phone and couldn’t wait until i was out of Contract, so I could get it for free.

The phone i opted for, in all it’s beautiful magnificence, is the LG Viewty.  How could i no fall in love with a mobile phone boasting a cracking five mega-pixel camera, with flash and high quality video feature?

As you”ll soon see, i opted for the Purple version, although given the choice i’d definitely have gone for black, but there weren’t any left at Orange and i didn’t want to wait any longer.  :D

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My first piece of coursework for English GCSE

Written by Paulie on October 30th, 2008

I handed this essay in a few weeks ago, as a first draft and the teacher decided that it was pretty much good to go.  He said he couldn’t think of any tips to give me, to make it any better.  Which either means there’s no hope, or that it was good enough for decent marks.  Fingers crossed, eh?  :D

He did, however, insert a few arrows, for where i should sort out the paragraphing (Something i struggle with), and it did receieve the wrath of the dreaded red circle, for an incorrect use of “;” and for the word “belied.”   I’m not sure why “belied” was circled, the word does exist and as it was typed, it’s not a mis-reading.  I didn’t realise until i’d got home, so I’ll be sure to ask him about that in the next class.  For now though, i’ve changed the word to “masked.”

Without further ado, my first essay, complete and hopefully enough to get me on my way to a pass grade: Read More »

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Dipping into the Literary Classics

Written by Paulie on October 27th, 2008

For quite some time — I’m not sure quite how long — I’ve been meaning to read the so-called “Classics.”

Some of them really appeal to me, others i’ve read good things about, and some don’t appeal to me at all.  So i decided to start the ball rolling, and just this afternoon (Minutes before i started writing this post) I placed my order on Amazon.co.uk.

The books I’ve started with are as follows: Read More »

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Life Experience (How The Hell Did That Happen?)

Written by Paulie on October 23rd, 2008

As i’ve started to write again, and think about things that are going on around me, as well as looking for subjects and personal experiences to write about, i’ve realised something that was quite unexpected.

The one big motto of most writers seems to be, universally, “Write about the things you know.”  Obviously the more interesting, unique and/or experience filled lives that people lead, the more they have to write about.

  • The assumption

I never really see myself as grown up, or experienced or having led a fulfilling life.  Part of the reason for that is because of my ex, who certainly liked to portray an image of me that was immature, wasn’t experienced enough in life to understand some of how it worked (A nice little psychological trick to justify wrongs and make it sound like the normal way of life).  Read More »

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Eye Contact (The Update)

Written by Paulie on October 23rd, 2008

When i went to my class last night, I was already planning to push myself a little bit.  I wanted to try and experiment with eye contact.  I didn’t really know how, or when i’d go about it, or even who with, but i just knew i wanted to challenge it.

  • Taking the bull by the horns and holding on tight!

As mentioned in my last post, i had a reasonably prolonged conversation with the girl sat at the desk behind me.  This girl, probably in her mid-20s, is quite friendly, uses a lot of eye contact and is generally quite expressive.  Read More »

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Socialising (The Update)

Written by Paulie on October 23rd, 2008

I was reminded last night, of a pattern that i’ve followed since as far back as I can remember.

I think in life, for me at least, it’s easy to just do things, be certain ways and follow certain patterns without even noticing.  Sometimes you may make a mental note, but never really pay attention to it again or forget it all together.

  • Fear the group

I know i’ve never been good in group situations.  Put me in a room with more than 5 or 6 people I don’t know, and you’re pretty much guarenteed an anti-social oik who will probably choose to listen to music in his headphones, rather than make conversation or get to know people.  Read More »

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Diagnosis For Dummies

Written by Paulie on October 21st, 2008

On Sunday morning, while my Dad was sleeping, my Mum noticed his breathing was dodgy.  She woke him up and discovered that not only was his breathing alternating between laboured and rapid, but he was building up a temperature too, his face was getting quite red.

We decided it was best to not take any chances and get him to the Hospital, after all, if it was just the beginnings of a cold, or Flu (He’d not long had the Flu jab), the worst they’d do is send him back home. Read More »

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Eye Contact

Written by Paulie on October 16th, 2008

In my night class last night, I had socializing thrust upon me.   “For fun,” apparently.

We were split into groups, and had to discuss “Persuasive topics.”  It worked out as quite a good thing, as it pretty much confirmed that my inability to socialize is more about a lack of practise and effort, than it is about shyness or lack of confidence.

I probably ended up being one of the main speakers of our group, or at least thereabouts.  But, i did notice something and it made me think, and you know the rules by now, if something makes me think, it’ll likely end up here in a nice, long ramble.  :D Read More »

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BT Broadband to test super-fast broadband

Written by Paulie on October 14th, 2008

Source: BT to test super-fast broadband in the UK.

British Telecom has announced two areas where it will test out its new super-fast broadband system.

Muswell Hill in London and Whitchurch in South Glamorgan will be used to conduct the pilots.

Each will involve up to 15,000 people and will start next summer.

BT’s Openreach division will be installing and testing a fibre-based broadband system, which will be capable of prodiving speeds of up to 40 Mb/s.

Looks like BT are finally ready to fire a shot across the bow of Cable Broadband.  Read More »

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